Never before in my life have I experienced the "spiritual warfare" as I am now.

God has ripped me apart and tore me down. As I shared a few days ago, I believe God started an extreme makeover in me. Interesting point about that real quick; on the show they take many applicants and choose the most qualified, God chose me, that is awesome! Next, they tear the house down, mine is torn to pieces. Next they rebuild bigger and better, I am ready for that! Not only do they rebuild bigger and better but they build the house to accommodate handicaps, I NEED that. I have many handicaps that only God can work with. Praise God for this time!

In the process of God tearing me down, I believe that Satan has come in with his angels and has done some destruction as well. My wife has helped me to see that some of the destruction has not been Godly. Some results from the destruction are not Godly, therefore it is not from God. Yes, God tore me down. At the same time, in my weakness, I must have allowed satan some foothold as well.

God has tore me down to make me better. But in this time my confidence has gone, some of my hope has gone and my level of sadness if not depression is high. Satan has been telling me negative things about me, and in my weakness I have believed them. The problem is that these are lies! Satan is the father of lies.

Satan has been telling me that I am worthless, not good at anything, not eligible for God's call, not only not a good leader, but a bad leader. He has told me that there is no hope, he has given confusion, self doubt and disbelief. These are not from God!

I felt the enemies presence yesterday in a way that I never have before, more real than ever before, I was freaked out. I suppose that God allowed me to experience the enemy so I would realize what I was into.

Today I am encouraged! Romans 8:37-39 is good news! The first line is absolutely fantastic! "No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us." Then the Scripture goes on to tell us what we are conquerors over, then it tells us that NOTHING can seperates from the love of God!

This morning I reclaim victory in my life. God is in control of me. God is working in me, there is no room for anyone or anything else. This construction site is closed. I am a conqueror through Jesus! Wow!